Monday, January 20, 2003
Tim's blog, take 2. Honestly, it took me 10 minutes to figure out how to get this far. I am such a loser.
What you'll find here are some of my thoughts...though I'm a little self conscious to join to realm of some of my well-read friends and acquaintances.
Here goes: I think waiting on God sucks. I mean, sure I could spout off a few reasons why it's right, good, or otherwise useful, but let's just be honest, sometimes it sucks. I've told God as much, but then I have to apologize - I wonder if he's making me wait because I'm so impatient. Probably not. In fact, I doubt it. More or less I think he is just so incredibly far out ahead of the game that he knows when I get it, when I see, when I know, then I will shut up and stop complaining. But right now, I think it sucks a little.
What am I waiting on, you ask? Well, there's always been something. Waiting for marriage, waiting for kids...okay I didn't wait long for kids at all, waiting for school to be done, waiting for an internship to start, waiting for an internship to end. Now I'm just waiting to land. I have a wife, 1 child and 1 on the way. I need to land somewhere. More than that I just feel this tugging of God saying "Go plant tomorrow's church" a tugging that's been there for some 2 years now. A tugging to go plant a network of simple churches, we believe at this point somewhere in the northeastern U.S. So what am I waiting for? Just trying to figure out where to go and how to pay the bills...my $40k ministry degree could land me a sweet job at a church...but they generally frown on someone who is coming to start a church....and plus, I just have some of my own issues to work through before a church pays my salary...if a church ever does pay my salary.
That said, we're prayerfully considering Syracuse, NY where I'm inquiring about positions at the Rescue Mission there. Alternately I could transfer to a Starbucks there. I've also randomly applied for a few jobs nationwide with Christian Non-profits. And I applied at JetBlue Airlines in Syracuse and UPS in Syracuse. All of the above would likely stretch the budget, but hey, God is calling...he'll make sure I have enough.
So why am I so impatient.
What you'll find here are some of my thoughts...though I'm a little self conscious to join to realm of some of my well-read friends and acquaintances.
Here goes: I think waiting on God sucks. I mean, sure I could spout off a few reasons why it's right, good, or otherwise useful, but let's just be honest, sometimes it sucks. I've told God as much, but then I have to apologize - I wonder if he's making me wait because I'm so impatient. Probably not. In fact, I doubt it. More or less I think he is just so incredibly far out ahead of the game that he knows when I get it, when I see, when I know, then I will shut up and stop complaining. But right now, I think it sucks a little.
What am I waiting on, you ask? Well, there's always been something. Waiting for marriage, waiting for kids...okay I didn't wait long for kids at all, waiting for school to be done, waiting for an internship to start, waiting for an internship to end. Now I'm just waiting to land. I have a wife, 1 child and 1 on the way. I need to land somewhere. More than that I just feel this tugging of God saying "Go plant tomorrow's church" a tugging that's been there for some 2 years now. A tugging to go plant a network of simple churches, we believe at this point somewhere in the northeastern U.S. So what am I waiting for? Just trying to figure out where to go and how to pay the bills...my $40k ministry degree could land me a sweet job at a church...but they generally frown on someone who is coming to start a church....and plus, I just have some of my own issues to work through before a church pays my salary...if a church ever does pay my salary.
That said, we're prayerfully considering Syracuse, NY where I'm inquiring about positions at the Rescue Mission there. Alternately I could transfer to a Starbucks there. I've also randomly applied for a few jobs nationwide with Christian Non-profits. And I applied at JetBlue Airlines in Syracuse and UPS in Syracuse. All of the above would likely stretch the budget, but hey, God is calling...he'll make sure I have enough.
So why am I so impatient.
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