Whatnot

Well, I'm tired, but I thought I would throw some stuff up here. Tomorrow will be a fourth day in a row opening at Starbucks. It wears me out, but I do love the job. I honestly wish I could make a living doing it. We're still working to figure out that whole "making a living" thing. God will show us a way.

I think I need to die to myself more. I have to daily let go of old dreams and ambitions, thoughts of "success" or "respect." I always told people I would be a worship leader (a program director/band leader). I could do it too. In college I only led worship (Christian College) at chapel one time. I always felt this prompting of God saying "not yet...just wait." And so I at some point had grand illusions of "making it" in some church somewhere. I look back on that and hang my head in shame. Not to say that being a worship leader is bad, but my ambitions were bad. All those things would bring pride to my family and I would gain the respect of old peers. But that is not what I am called to do. And so I go about this mission, following a vision of simplicity, somewhere under the radar...something almost illogical...something that God must resurrect.

***Lord, make me fully Yours. Help me to die to me, that I might live. God help me move beyond any division between sacred and secular in my life. Be glorified in me, oh Great God. You must increase, I must decrease.***